i want it quiet

but it never is

my head spins

and screams

and aches

nobody knows

nobody understands

nobody cares

and if they care

i don’t

i don’t want help

i never will

but i need it

and to cope

i’ll send my mind off

i keep my head in the clouds

breathe in

it burns

breath out

guilt

not enough guilt to stop

i don’t want to stop

but i need to

i found comfort

in my sadness

and in my shame

and in my misery

and it doesn’t bother me

but maybe it should

nobody knows

and honestly

i won’t tell them

they don’t deserve it

in a room full of people

i am alone

i am not heard

i am not remembered

i want it to stop

i want it quiet

I’m running in circles

Around my mind

And only stops when it’s negative

And it spins again