to my sister,

if i had a million words to describe my sister

there are many things that come to mind

generous, kind, empathetic, caretaker,

everything she is, i am not

to my sister

from living every moment with each other,

to barely seeing each other at all

from sitting in the living room playing silently

to not even being under the same roof anymore

to my sister

i always wished for the day you went to college

or moved out

i wished for the time i wouldn’t have to share anything with you

i wished for you to be in school and me to stay home sick so i’d have mom all to myself

i wished for you to get out of my room and leave me alone

I wished incorrectly

i wish for you to share the same room with me

i wish for days when we aren’t both busy

i wish for park days 

i wish for days when dad would take us to 7/11 after school and you would always get a Coca-Cola Slurpee and mine would be cherry

i wish for days where you weren’t a call away

to my sister

you are my built-in best friend

the shoulder that tells me to get out of your room when i’m crying

the one to always wait for me when i’m late

the one to always provide the first piece of criticism when i have a new outfit

to my sister

more importantly

you are the one to teach me lessons i could never learn in school

you are my biggest inspiration, my biggest fan, my biggest supporter

you are the one to lift me up on a bad day

with love, from your sister