Side Effects (poem)

The doctor gave me pills to fix the symptoms

Side effects of unhealthy coping mechanisms

Everyone’s been asking me these endless “easy” questions

Truth is that the truth is a hundred times more complex


I’ve spent the last few years trying to find the words

Shoving mountain-fulls of feelings into some pretentious verse

My obsession, my compulsion, my medicine, my curse 

Realitys’ duality has safety laced with hurt


I’m scared to leave behind the life I know

I’m terrified of never letting go

One step cleaner now, cleaner then before

Stuck one foot in and one out of the door