years upon years.

years of never ending time that I’ve wasted.

wasting missing you.

you who finally came back. 

back to back I have waited.

now we will talk about all the times we’ve stalked each other on social media.

all the times we’ve written out birthday texts that we’ve never sent.

all the times one another have went to bed wondering if the other has found peace. 

I’ll allow you to feel guilt for all the same reasons I do.

and I will talk to you all day, 

but I will never call your number again.

i will never call twice to see if i make it past the 8th ring. 

because i too after years have found peace, 

and i will never intentionally reopen wounds i have put bandaids over.

and i still love you,

                                                                                                                   (I always have)

but i will never allow you to know why i used to call twice.

                                                                   (you can’t feel guilty for what i used to do)

and i will never call your number again.

                                                                                  (im sorry that i did this to myself)